The Forgotten Blogger
I can hardly remember the last time I posted anything. I constantly find myself in situations that I feel should be blogged about, but I hardly find the time to sit down and type it out. There have been the odd days, where I have logged into Wordpress to type it all out, but couldn’t really remember just what I was going to blog about.
When I started this blog, I was in immense emotional pain, and thought that writing about what I felt would make me feel better. Nearly 8 months later, I feel different about life – I am happy.
I felt guilty for not writing. I somehow feel that all my actions are based on my emotions. I can hardly think logically once my heart has been made up. Currently, I am unable to focus on Honours – Yes, that small little post graduate degree I was overly excited about last year. My mind seems to have become lazy, and every morning is more difficult to get up and leave my bed. Although I am happy, I just feel unfocused. (Do I need to be unhappy to be focused? Or is that just a way to forget about why I am unhappy?)
The reason for my guilt is that I felt that writing about my issues made me feel better (I looked forward to it, really), and now, forgetting all about it, is typical Robyne – Leave when all is well.
I’m caught between this issue of guilt (it does go beyond actual blogging), and not dealing with it to focus on my small little project. 
Somehow I fear that by the time I figure it all out, it’ll be too late, as always. And it’ll be back to the sulking, sad Robyne that needs her blog.